He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and He that ruleth his spirit than He that taketh a city.
I am sure that I am not the only one that allows my emotions to get the best of me. Do you ever have those days where you wake up an emotional wreck, and then you drag your emotional wreck of a self onto an emotional rollercoaster? Well I am even a bit more radical, because I often drag my husband on that emotional rollercoaster with me.
Many of our emotions stem from issues that have been masked, and not dealt with properly. So many times we clean up the house of our mind and heart from things that happened in the past, only to store them in a closet in our brain to be used at a later date. We say we forgive, and we even claim to have forgotten, but all the while we are hiding a little list of offenses in our back pocket to be used as ammunition at the next available moment. If I am not alone, can we take a moment of silence for all the loaded guns of hurt that we carry, because today we are going to put the safety on and remove the bullets.
I know probably better than most that stored emotions and pain profit nothing. As a frequent journal writer, and a very sensitive individual, I have found that I compartmentalize my hurt. When I do this, it leaves portals for new offenses to awaken old ones. This level of dysfunction is not healthy. It took a serious purge, fast, and much prayer for me to even consider letting go, because our emotions and our hurt start to define who we are, and when we let them go, we feel as though we are losing a part of our selves. Change doesn't only hurt when it's in the negative, even change for a good reason causes considerable amounts of discomfort. Although it’s difficult today. we are putting our emotions in subjection. Our emotions and hurts cannot control or define who we are. When anything has more power than Yah does over us, it is in control. Our hurts and pains that are creating these emotions are idols of importance. Today we are tearing down idols and portals that we have allowed to ruin relationships, that are causing us to be depressed, and to not live life to the fullest. Our emotions are not in subjection to us, because we have shown that we cannot handle them. Today and forever more, we need to constantly put our emotions into subjection under the word of YAH.
Allow our thoughts and our actions to be weighed in how they will please our Elohim, and how they will affect His kingdom. If our thoughts are not going to edify and bring forth fruit, then our thoughts are outside of His will, and we need to seek His face in order to understand how He would have us carry out this matter. If we do not immediately see a way to constructively express ourselves, then maybe what we are trying to invest in the situation is not necessary. It is time as women to jump off the daily emotional rollercoaster, and walk in the light of love, righteousness, and truth. We will no longer be in fear of being walked over if we let something slide. We will not feel weak if our rebuke of offenses are handed to the Father. We don't have to be in control, and submit to the perception that has been given to us about our emotional state. We will be unwavering and steadfast as our Abba ministers to us through His word. We will hold our tongue, and when we do speak, we let our words drip with honey, so that we are not overlooked or misunderstood, because of our emotions. Acting in our strength profits nothing, but relying on the WORD, and being silent gives Yah an opportunity to fight my battles, and heal my hurts.
Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:
James 1:19 (KJV)
He that is slow to wrath is of great understanding: but he that is hasty of spirit exalteth folly.
Proverbs 14:29 (KJV)
Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof: and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit.
Ecclesiastes 7:8 (KJV)
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, long suffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. And they that are Messiah's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.
Galatians 5:22-26 (KJV)